Fallen 44

Yesterday, it was the National Day of  Mourning in the (Philippines) because of the forty four (44) Special Action Forces (SAF) polices who were ambushed and killed in Mamasapano, Maguindanao. All Filipinos mourn because of this unfortunate event; we mourn not only for them who gave their lives to serve the country but to the families who were left behind as well.

We mourn not because they lost the battle to capture the most wanted Malaysian Terrorist who killed 200 people in Bali, Indonesia but because they were trapped and butchered like animals in a place that we thought, it’s okay and safe to go because of the ongoing peace negotiation with the rebels (MILF) and (Philippines) government.

There are a lot of questions than answers given by our government; most of us cannot accept the poor explanation not because I/we hated them but because it’s indeed unacceptable and very poorly crafted. We also mourn to the rebels who were also killed in the battle not because I sympathize with them but because they were my brothers too as Filipino, and to the civilians who were among the casualties as always who has nothing to do with it. We mourn because our country nowadays is divided.

It is unfortunate; that a few weeks ago most Catholic people had a high hopes in their lives when the highest Pontiff in the world visited Philippines and then after a week these slaughtering happened that truly shocked most of us.

My country suffered a lot of unfortunate events every year not only from wrath of nature, inequalities in the society that breed rebels and mismanagement of our government to govern its people.

You can’t blame us, why most of us are working here in other countries not to protect ourselves or bring good fortunes to our families but because most of us see hopelessness in our country.

To the families of the brave #Fallen44 condolence  and may our Almighty God embrace you and be with you always to comfort you and to wipe your tears specially this time of our lost as a nation.


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New Year with New Additional Work Assignment

In a day from now, I will be leaving my work place assignment not because I’m done with it but because I have a new additional work assignment. You read it right; I will be handling additional new project. My boss really loved me so much, but it doesn’t mean that since I have additional project they will increase my salary, that won’t happened for now. My yearly evaluation is 10 months away, so, I have to be contented with my present salary; that’s life for me here.

I don’t have problem with my present situation right now, in fact, I love it and it’s a good sign that they entrusted me that I can handle this new project aside from my present project. The only problem I think for now is my transportation since I don’t have car and don’t know how to drive, I’ll be asking for someone to drive me every day, and I have to wake up as early as 5:30 in the morning; it’s a 30 minute drive my new accommodation to my new office unlike before my accommodation is a just a walk away to my office; that’s a big adjustment on my part. Hopefully this will get well along the way.

That’s it for now. Have a nice day and keep well.

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If I can

If I can only hold the time,
And make it mine
I’ll stop it when you’re happy
Then let it passed when you’re lonely.
I’ll also share it with you every day of the year,
Just to make you smile and let you cheer.
Especially in times that I know you’ve felt endeared.
I’ll let my time to stay for you my dear.
If I see you hurt, crying and in pain,
I’ll take back the time you don’t need it; there’s no gain.
I will not holds the two hands of time,
Let it passed, let it go, I don’t owned it; it’s not mine.
Just trying to be poetic in year 2015 😉
Have a nice day and keep well.

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Still Alive!

Still Alive” If you had watched ‘The Croods’ cartoon movie you are very much familiar with this line which they usually shouted every morning of their lives. 
For the past 4 days after New Year’s Eve, as much as I wanted to write something in my blog to start-up my 2015; I found it difficult. I have the ‘words’ to write but don’t know how to begin with, well, I guess the ideas/thoughts that I have, were the same ideas/thoughts I had last year. Nothing so special to share with, except for some white hair strands appearing in my head and some lines on my face. These are the signs that I’m not getting younger as the days goes by, in fact, this year I’m turning 37 and proud.
During the day of New Year’s Eve before leaving the office, I’m hesitant to greet my fellow Filipinos and Indians working as our contractor a ‘Happy New Year’ knowing that they haven’t receive their salaries up to this moment of writing this blog, to add salt to their injuries, their company still owe them 4 months more for their unpaid salaries. I felt the disappointment on their eyes that time and wondering how their families in their countries celebrating the New Year’s Eve and just leave the past behind? My mind cannot help not to think that their families at home became more miserable and helpless and even wondering how many families became hopeless and ruined because of ‘this’ specially if most of the wives are dependent to them as husbands. Without their remittances to their family, it will be very difficult to provide decent meals, sending their children to schools, paying their utility bills and rentals. Although, I cannot see them crying, I know what’s deep inside of them, you can sense it in their eyes and hear in their voices. But instead of crying and locked themselves in their rooms, you can see them working very hard every day.
I guess that’s what ‘Still Alive’ means in ‘The Croods’ cartoon movie that I’ve watched, every day of your life, you can do anything when you’re still alive, and life must go on no matter what consequences it may bring just staying alive to live.
Happy New Year and Keep Well.

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A Letter to 2015

Dear 2015,

I been thinking about you since last night; I don’t know you for now and you don’t know me, as well. Your friend 2014, really, gave us a hard time; we’ve been dealing (still) with a lot of problems in peace and orders, tragedies in seas and air, worst poverty struck even in a first world countries, diseases that became a worldwide crisis and a lot more. We know, that this world is not a paradise to all, we know that humans are very vulnerable in all these uncertainties of life while living in this world. We know that we (still) need to learn more things about in this world. But, you must also know, that despite all these unfortunate events, (we) the people of this world became more connected to each other; we became more concerned, exposed and resilient people. And because of these; we are learning, adopting, surviving and evolving; that’s ‘The Human Race’.

You will be welcomed by fireworks that will light up the night sky. While you’re coming, people will be cheering for you with hope and expectations (but don’t put pressure on yourself), and also, you will be welcomed by a loud noises, as in really very loud. You will also see people crying not because they are frightened or scared of the uncertainties you may bring to us but because most of us ‘made it’. You will see us falling for sometimes, that’s for sure; we will weep, we will be hurt, and there will be a pain in life and falling. But as the times goes by, there’s always a good side of falling; people will learn, people will stand, people will be reunited, people will care and people will continue to hope and love that someday ‘inequalities’ will soon be just a part of history of humankind. Welcome 2015! And Happy New Year to all especially to my families, I love you all.

P.S. Just be thankful in all the trials in ourlives and because of this we became more matured and we’ve stepped one step forward for good. Let the past be a history, Let the present be a gift and Let the tomorrow be our future.

Truly Yours;

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Love Letter/s on New Year’s Eve?

In connection to my blog about “Alone in New Year’s Eve of 2015” there was one suggestion from a WP blogger that instead of doing nothing in the eve of 2015, why not write a special love letter/s? She has a point and I totally agree on her, although, I don’t know how to start my love letter/s and here’s my questions needed to be answered to consider the suggestion from a WP blogger;

First, in order to make this, I have to dig more and deeper on my past which will be more complicated because I’ll be digging the saddest part of my past as well. I have to be very careful on narrating all the memories I had in my past and addresses to my love ones to make it more sincere, so, they can feel the love that I invested unconditionally.

Second and lastly, in making a love letters, I’m sure that it will be very emotional (I cannot help myself not to be emotional, I’m alone) and I don’t want to cry while making these letters. Crying in the eve of 2015? That’s not a good idea to start 2015. It has to be simple, meaningful, lovely and a happy love letters.  

While considering these questions of mine, I believe that I just make this thing’s complicated. Wherein, it should be a simple love message to inspire them to continue their lives and my life without any remorse/regrets in life but instead be thankful in all the blessings that God gave to me and to my family. And be thankful to all the trials that I/we struggled/surpassed which make us/me stronger and resilient in facing the adversities of our lives.

Advance Happy New Year and I’m still considering writing a love letter/s, I just needed more time to concentrate. Thanks Estelea always keep well and more blessings to come

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First Project for 2015

I spoke with my college best buddies about our first ever project next year about giving gifts or sharing our blessings to the orphanage institution or home for the elders or children next December of 2015.

We usually have dinners with our families in a semi-formal restaurants once in a while, if we wanted to have a reunion during my vacation. By this time, we wanted this reunion to be more meaningful and memorable by bringing joy to those children or elders abandoned by their families. I just hope this project will work and I’m so excited to be part of it knowing that my children will participate also in this project.

We will have a mini-program before gift giving like song number from one of my friend who has the passion in singing, mini games with prices and story telling (if possible for the children) and before saying goodbye, we will give them thier gifts as token for their participations and cooperation to our first project.

Right now, we already come up with these ideas and hopefully we will finalized it before November 2015. For the budgeting or financing for this program, we will start saving or depositing some of our excess allowance this coming end of January 2015 just to fund this program.

This is one of my dreams; to share and give joy to those abandoned children and elders. By this, my kids will knows that love is not only for relatives, friends, and families but it should be spreaded to those people who are longing for love from families like children and elders who haven’t seen their families for years or worst not meet after thier birth.

Have a nice day and keep well. 🙂

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