I stand with people who I knew who had a point; by hook or by crook I will never let them down.
I’ll be there as their defender in all the times, I’ll spread my wings to shield them in all adversities and consequences.
But then I paused for a while and questioned myself; who stands behind me, who will comprehends why I’m so firm with my stance?
I guess nobody cares.
I tried to explain it so hard but nobody wants to hear.
I shared my taught and wisdom but I caught no attention, in the end I’m the ruthless fellow.
Tough to understand why their hearts are so cold when I needed their attention.
Tough to understand why their eyes are closed when I wanted them to see that I’m weeping.
Tough to understand why their ears are deaf when I wanted them to listen to me.
Tough to understand why nobody cares when I cared for them; what’s wrong with me or maybe there’s something wrong with them?
Why their weakness affected me so much wherein I’m having a hard time to sleep at night?
Why their flaw makes me weak and restless?
And as much as I wanted to be there for them, I paused for a while and asked myself again; for how long I can stand?
I don’t know, I don’t know.
I prayed to my God to protect me always, give me strength and let my grievances turn into light of knowledge.
My God knows that I learned from my past and it teaches me well to become tough,
I paused and asked myself again, Am I Tough to Understand?